I need help. Possible mental addiction to alcohol?
Hey guys. I had my first drink 4 months ago by myself at home, and loved the feeling. From then on Ive been craving a drink every weekend, not because my body needs the alcohol to not be in withdrawal, but because I feel like Im finally relaxed when Im drunk, and it gives me a release. Ive stolen from my parents to get money to get alcohol, even if I know they’ll be suspicious it was me. Ivde been caught 4 times and can’t stop thinking about it. I have never gotten drunk around my friends. The reason is I can never stop at just 2 shots. I have to go all the way until I can barely walk. When I start, I cant stop until I pass out or throw up. I literally almost died once from alcohol poisoning and was passed out for 16 hours and was throwing up in my sleep, but my mind still craves it.
During the school year it only became an issue during weekends since I was occupied during weekdays, but now Im on summer break, and Im afraid Im going to drink every day and become an extreme alcoholic before school starts again.
My reason(s) why I think Im mentally addicted: Ive been going through severe and sometimes suicidal depression throughout the past 6 months, tried to get help, but that ended up backfiring on me, so I just try to deal with it by myself. I resently took myself off my prescribed Zoloft because I read up on it and I know for a fact I was addicted to it. I dropped off of it 6 weeks ago and am still going through Zoloft withdrawl for that. I seem to have a high mental tendency for addiction, for no reason at all. For example, Ive smoked weed 3 times, and **** the feeling, but I keep wanting moer because it’s a release. I hope you guys can understand.
I need help from past alcoholics and/or experts, not just people blurting out GET HELP NOW FROM AN ADULT. I want to fix it myself, Im not going to ask an adult for help.
Please, I need help. The best thing you guys can do to help me is give me suggestions on how to stop the cravings, or anything to get me un-mentally addicted. Ive seen what alcohol does to people who are addicted to it, and I dont want that to be me, but I cant stop.
Answering the 2nd answer…it’s already almost too late for that. I went from a 4.0 freshman year in HS to a .08 this year. It’s already affected my whole life; I doubt Ill even be able to get into college now.
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skinnyb1tch03 posted: 31 Jul at 2:09 am
I’ve had issues with alcohol and drugs since I’ve been thirteen years old. I’ve also had a lot of depression issues. I understand what your going through and it’s hard. I went to out patient rehab. That might help you. What helped me even more than that was drug counseling and Narcotics Anonomous and Alcoholics Anonomous meetings. Addictions a serious issue and I hope you do seek help. It’s hard to do it by yourself, trust me.
Good Luck Sweetie. I hope this helped a little bit.
brad posted: 02 Aug at 8:16 am
You are certainly showing symptoms of alcoholism. Alcohol is a wolf in sheeps clothing. You will start by drinking to have fun, then to feel normal, then because it physically hurts when you aren’t drinking. The deception is that when you thought you were having fun, you were actually putting a chemical that causes depression into your body. I gravely want to warn you, alcohol doesn’t care anything about you, it will relentlessly assault the quality of your life until your life is destroyed, or you are dead. Just think, if you had never taken that first drink, you wouldn’t be having the problems with it that you are now. I recommend finding an Anon group asap, and break the cycle before things go from bad to a living hell. .
If I could offer any advice on breaking the cycle. It would be don’t put yourself in a situation where you are around it, or people using it. Sincerly apologize to the people you have hurt while drinking(even yourself), and ask for their forgiveness. When I made the decision to quit, I prayed everytime I had a craving. Also when I visualized alcohol in my head. I stopped visualizing it as the cure for my issues, but for what it really was, the cause of my issues,and the reason for most murders, assaults, divorces, fatal car accidents, people becoming homeless, suicides, etc, the list goes on and on.
*7 Inch Heels* posted: 04 Aug at 11:38 pm
Wow you sound like me! I became very mentally adicted to alchol after a few years of very rough times! Ive always been depressed and this was the one thing that finally could help me. And just like you I did not knwo when to stop! I hated when people cut me off! I though that when I couldnt physically put another drink to my mouth because I was so drunk then I could be done lol! It got worse and worse! Then it was more then a metal adiction. Then it opened up a new world of drugs for me! I started to try everything! Anyways what im trying to say is your not alone! I had nobody to talk to at all about my adiction! I had to go through it alone! Find someone to talk to even if its a stranger, you need to get help before its to late. You can always email me if you want. Good luck and be strong.
starfisher posted: 08 Aug at 6:49 am
I’m impressed that you’re smart enough to recognize addictive behavior in yourself, and that you’re making an effort to put a stop to it, instead of just hoping it goes away.
You say you “want to fix it” yourself, and that you are “not going to ask an adult for help”. You stopped your Zoloft because you read up on it, and what you read made you decide that you were addicted.
You’re intelligent, and you have an admirably independent spirit, but you lack the years of life experience needed to know this simple truth: there are things that people can’t do on their own, and fighting an addiction is one of those things. I know you don’t want to hear that, but it’s a fact. You need help. So right now you need to *face up* to what I’m guessing you probably already know, but haven’t admitted to yourself: you NEED help.
If you are serious about not wanting to mess up your life, help yourself to some help. Since the help you got previously for your depression “backfired” then go to some one else this time, and if they don’t help, then someone else. But don’t give up, persevere, please!
Clark posted: 08 Aug at 10:04 pm
I understand why you going through like that. You have experienced many things and came up with that one big mistake. You need a personal recovery assistant for a total recovery. You cannot be healed by your own self. You need a companion.